You know.. everyday is a mystery. One day we could be soaring high up in the sky... another day we could be down in the dumps. Everyday life throws a challenge at us. When this challenge comes at us.. we have two choices to make. Have a good day or have a bad one. How do we have a good day? By taking the challenge and overcoming it. Now, I'm not saying every challenge is going to be easy.. that's why there are always going to be bad days. But we have a choice to make more of our days good than bad.

Why am I writing this? Is it to show others what I'm feeling? Nope. Is it for fun? Wrong again. I'm writing this because I find that the feelings you have in one day can quickly change on the next day. And I want to be able to relive these emotions which I'm feeling today. Call it weird. Call it dumb. But to me, writing this is like writing my honest emotions.

What I'm feeling now is a sense of direction(metaphorically speaking). Not to say I've never had a sense of direction previously. Just that that direction is becoming clearer. I know what I need to do. I need to first ace my exams because no matter what.. studies are always important in life. (Easier said than done. Seriously). Once I get that cleared up.. (meaning SPM) I can have more room to fit other... stuff. MAYBE stuff like a relationship. (I mean not that I need one right away. If there's no right girl..ah well there's still university. XD)

And then what? I've never really thought that far.. Only until college. But I believe that once I've graduated, no amount of planning will prepare me for what's waiting for me on the outside world.

So far.... throughout this year.. I have only one regret. Telling a lie to somebody special. Even though I meant it for that person's own good.. I can't help feeling I let something that could have been so special slip away. But I made that decision. I knew the risks and I took it. Hopefully one day that person will understand why I said what I said.

Once SPM is over (studies first, studies first, studies first)... I hope that that a certain someone will still be there. Though I wouldn't be surprised if no one's there waiting. I blew my chance. I don't know if I should deserve a second. Only a lucky few receives a second. I'm not usually a lucky guy... but maybe my luck could change for this time round.

If I do have that last chance (I will work my backside off for that chance)... I won't waste it again. Because I know that person's worth it.

Well... hope the Patrick from tomorrow will see this post here and relive these feelings. Alright. Byeee. Plkk08 signing off~~

Studies are important. Studies first.